Bear
I need you to come through. I’m not ok. I’ve been alone all this time. I don’t have the help that you think I have. Please stop blocking me out. I don't have anyone to turn to.
I stay by my dad’s foreclosed home. I can’t get in. I don’t have where else to go. I eat whatever fruit I can reach from trees in people’s gardens. Sometimes they make me sick. I don’t eat every day. Sometimes I don’t move for a whole day or longer. I’m in pain all the time. I don’t think I really sleep because I always feel pain but I don’t think I wake up every day either.
I tried tutoring for awhile. It wasn’t enough. There’s something wrong with my skin, I bleed randomly, always dizzy, I know I’m way too thin I already was before all this. My hopes are I get approved for SSDI or get the ok for food stamps or get placed in housing or the bank finally unfreezes my account or you unfreeze. So I go check all those places and I have to check online for the bank or if you decided to help.
Please don’t be so stubborn. I’m not OK and I don’t have anyone to turn to. You know I wouldn’t let you go through this... I was a kid then and overwhelmed and still I did everything I could so you wouldn’t, remember? 'til you could go to your brother's.
I cross highways without looking and get caught shoplifting because hospitals and jails have food and beds but that doesn’t work out. The cars break and I’m just asked to return whatever. I ask policemen for help, gone to emergency rooms.. why is it so hard to find help?
If you pay me back as you promised I can buy a flight to show up at my brother’s place. I’ve given up on everything else you promised me. If you could see, you’d put an end to it. Please help. I’m tired, in pain, hungry, thirsty, scared every day. I don't know how to make it stop. I need to get to someplace I’ll be ok. Please come through soon. It's too much pain. I've been screaming for mercy, please listen.
I need you to come through. I’m not ok. I’ve been alone all this time. I don’t have the help that you think I have. Please stop blocking me out. I don't have anyone to turn to.
I stay by my dad’s foreclosed home. I can’t get in. I don’t have where else to go. I eat whatever fruit I can reach from trees in people’s gardens. Sometimes they make me sick. I don’t eat every day. Sometimes I don’t move for a whole day or longer. I’m in pain all the time. I don’t think I really sleep because I always feel pain but I don’t think I wake up every day either.
I tried tutoring for awhile. It wasn’t enough. There’s something wrong with my skin, I bleed randomly, always dizzy, I know I’m way too thin I already was before all this. My hopes are I get approved for SSDI or get the ok for food stamps or get placed in housing or the bank finally unfreezes my account or you unfreeze. So I go check all those places and I have to check online for the bank or if you decided to help.
Please don’t be so stubborn. I’m not OK and I don’t have anyone to turn to. You know I wouldn’t let you go through this... I was a kid then and overwhelmed and still I did everything I could so you wouldn’t, remember? 'til you could go to your brother's.
I cross highways without looking and get caught shoplifting because hospitals and jails have food and beds but that doesn’t work out. The cars break and I’m just asked to return whatever. I ask policemen for help, gone to emergency rooms.. why is it so hard to find help?
If you pay me back as you promised I can buy a flight to show up at my brother’s place. I’ve given up on everything else you promised me. If you could see, you’d put an end to it. Please help. I’m tired, in pain, hungry, thirsty, scared every day. I don't know how to make it stop. I need to get to someplace I’ll be ok. Please come through soon. It's too much pain. I've been screaming for mercy, please listen.