So, for the first time in college...or rather, in my life...I had a nervous breakdown during one of my finals a few days ago. I never felt so confused, scared, or worried in my life. It was the 3rd of three finals in a 15hr time span. It was for Economics 460, or Senior level mathematical application to economic theory. I sat in class shaking my leg rapidly and nervous like, I spent 45 min. of the hour and 15 min. time span just staring at the clock and confusing myself on where to begin. I turned the final in and basically threw it at the TA I was so upset with my performance. For the first time ever a course conquered me. I can honestly say I couldn't have tried harder or put forth any more effort than I did to fall so short of success.
Long story short, after getting some moral support from close friends and family, I sweated it out over the weekend and went and talked to the prof. early this week. Turns out I got a 14!!! (That went on the fridge :blush: ) And yes, that's officially my worst grade ever on any school work in my life. That's just great considering this is a course for my major that I'm required to get a C in to graduate. He just looked at me and said:
"I don't know what happened to you on this final Jake....but I
KNOW you have more potential in you than you represented through your performance. You're supposed to graduate soon, and I'm not going to hold you back since your in-class and homework grades are so good. I'm happy to do this, and I want you to take this exam home, re-work it with all of your class notes, and bring it to me on Friday and I'll give you the C you need for the class to graduate."
Needless to say, I didn't have a mental breakdown for nothing, after I walked out of the exam I knew how bad I had messed-up. I guess that's what being awake for 72 hours straight studying can do to someone. So with that class, I've got 7 hours of 16 completed this semester with a 3hr A, 3hr C and 1hr B...giving me a 3.0 heading into the final three exams. Only one I'm really worried about, Econometrics 463, or rather, using statistics to analyze regression models instead of calculus to derive consumer and producer choices. It's another class I'm required to get a C in, and am sitting pretty border-line in.
So, 1 more final tomorrow...English, which I have to read 3 classic greek novels by 10am tomorrow....
(Probably shouldn't have procrastinated this one). And then I have Financial Accounting and Econometrics on Monday (Which is keeping me from going to see Pete Johnson in Dallas on Saturday :angry: ). So, half-way done! I can wait to see what I pull out of the fun-box to smoke after monday's over... :whistling:
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